This week my little boy was diagnosed with swine flu. For many the flu is just an inconvenience. When Aaron gets a cold or any type of respiratory illness we go on high alert. He has asthma and has been in ICU over what started out as a common cold.
Today I asked myself, why is it sometimes easier to obey God rather than trust Him? I think my faith has grown so much over the last 30 years until I find myself in circumstances that defy explanation. When unexpected circumstances happen that seem unjust, illogical, or tragic I sometimes feel frustrated, confused or angry. In the last few months I have known of at least half a dozen deaths of children under 18. I have seen marriages destroyed due to affairs. I have seen young mothers diagnosed with terminal cancer. I have seen people lose jobs and homes. I have seen people die without Christ. These things can be hard to understand. Even when we have faith in God and know that He is sovereign, in adversity we can question why God would allow such.
What I do know for sure is that God is love and He is sovereign even when I don’t understand. I cannot view circumstances through the eyes of what makes sense to me but through the eyes of faith. When we seek the Lord and know Him we will enjoy intimacy with Him. When we have intimacy with God we will find that we can trust Him. Even when we don’t understand God will carry us through.